
Hello everyone! I recently took a short break from here, and from a lot of things actually, for a little self care. The last year was pretty crazy, and I had put off some important things for myself and it sort of reached a head, forcing me to take care of it. I struggle with anxiety, a lot, and the last year I had tried different medications, none of which worked, and I sort of gave up. Unfortunately, my body and mental health still needed something, and therapy only was not working. It reached a point where I was constantly in a state of anxiety or panic; and I finally approached my doctor about trying something different, again. After two weeks of adjusting to this new medicine, I am feeling a bit better. I still have a ways to go, but everyday I see a little more progress in the right direction.
I feel it is important to talk about these things. Mental health gets swept under the rug, or dismissed by others as you should just be able to suck it up and move on, and sometimes that really is not possible and you need help. My husband read this and told me about it when I was feeling bad about having to take medication – “Sometimes you need a crutch to hold you up so you can walk”. And that is so true. I always feel slightly like I have failed when I can’t control my intrusive thoughts or panic, and I have to give myself some more grace.
I have spent the last two weeks doing a lot of thinking. I didn’t do much on Instagram, I didn’t read, I wasn’t blogging. I kept the amount of input to a minimum – and wow, do I consume a lot of other input normally. When did I have time to slow down and think, between all I was taking in and also what I do daily in my home, in terms of care for Wyatt, etc. I really didn’t. So that is one thing I am going to change – taking more time for me. I sometimes get lost in the shuffle. Even with blogging, I hurry through my posts in the morning while Wyatt is eating breakfast, trying to carve out a small bit of time for me. I am doing that right now, but I am trying not to hurry through today. I don’t need to. We homeschool, our schedule is controlled by me and if we start later, we start later. Nothing bad will happen.
The last two weeks, we also spent around the house. The first week of my new meds, I was so tired. Like for two days all I did was sleep. Thank goodness I started on a weekend! Then, the following Monday, Billy’s dad was rushed to the hospital for a stroke. It turned out much better than it could have, and it was a TIA but it was a very scary week as they put out different health issues that kept popping up while he was in the hospital. He is out and doing well now.
So we have been taking it slow.

Playing with all of our little animals, including checking on our new fish, Spot. (We started with two, sadly one did not make it)



We had a few warm sunny days, and by then, I was feeling well enough to get out more with kiddo.




Sunday, we decorated for Valentine’s Day, and Billy made us a wonderful dinner (inspired by one of my favorite movies, Amelie, which I am talking about here on Thursday)





It has been a two weeks of healing and I am hoping to keep this feeling of slowing down and letting go and soaking up more moments.
I hope wherever you are that you are doing well. Take care my friends. Be gentle with yourselves. And thank you to everyone who commented, messaged, and emailed me that you were thinking about me, praying for me, and were checking on me. I appreciated all of your kind words.























































































































































